I’ve had a countdown widget on my phone’s home screen for a few months now.
Today it reads, “53 days until my baby is born“.
It’s obviously just an estimate, but seeing that reminder each day just gives me a little dose of reality.
We are SO CLOSE to having two kids. Two little girls who need their mama and daddy for everything.
I can’t even explain how grateful I am for both of them.
Our Peanut gets stronger and stronger by the day, making her presence even more known. Her wiggles and kicks are the last things I’m aware of before I fall asleep at night, and they’re what I first recognize when I wake up in the morning.
Soon enough, those kicks will be replaced by cries for milk and diaper changes.
I am already so smitten by this new little girl. Between her and Kaya, my heart might actually explode from being so full.
I just hope I can be the best mama to the two of them. I’ve wondered and worried a little about how I’ll balance a newborn needing to nurse with a toddler who can seem more like a little monkey at times.
I’ve realized that I want to give both girls 100 percent of my best efforts, but I can’t help asking myself how it’ll be possible (100% divided by 2 is 50%… and that isn’t really what I’m going for). I want them both to have all the things they need and some of what they want. And I hope that my attention isn’t so divided that either of them feels left out.
I know it’s going to take some time to figure out a new routine and way of life. This new baby is only going to add to our lives, even if it might be a little difficult at times, especially in the beginning. We’ll figure it out and do better than we ever thought we could.